Wednesday, June 30, 2010
the unsaid
the unsaid
by hardCore
i know this shorty, although he can’t drive
he’s well versed in them 65 mile per hour hip collisions
a product of a weak school system
and a father who never bothered to tell him bout the birds and the bees
drinking hennessy he learns about biology
and how fire in his urinary tract ain’t perfect chemistry
wrap it up, he kinda missed that ministry
pissing flames, he slowly starts to google his pain
steady ooching and ouching
wishing that he’d never done
what he did unprotected on his mother’s couch and
his mom starts approaching him
“baby you okay?”
thinking nope, he says yes, and deals with it
shorty’s on the ropes with it
fever rising by the minute
but visit, a clinic, he didn’t
the blood in his urine starts spraying
body screaming out for help
even though his young tongue can’t say it, the unsaid
just say it
just say it
just say it
just say it
the unsaid (repeat)
i know this lady with a short hair cut
she’s very pretty, though she dresses androgynous and don’t say much
her lifestyle is monogamous
always the fingers on her hand or a toy but never a man
isn’t sure if she’s gay or straight,
she feels crooked
….out of wack and just a bit different
tummy sickens during holiday visits
after greeting her mother
when her stepdad starts to hug her
an Oscar moment
she starts grinning
mind spinning thinking bout dumping the clip of a nine in him
as a child, she’d sit up on his lap so proud
one nap changed all that, and ever since then
she only smiles when she’s drunk off gin
not attracted to women, but totally repulsed by men
refused to crush mommy’s dreams
so she bit her tongue hard and keeps swallowing the truth that bleeds, the unsaid
just say it
just say it
just say it
just say it
the unsaid (repeat)
big Al
we talked, we drank, we shot the shit with the best of’em
but yo cuz, before you had died
wish i’d of got you off them foods that’s fried
and them cancer sticks
cause on the real, i miss laughing with you
so now I’m living like Surviorman
always boiled or baked
all steel no aluminum pans
all my produce is locally planted
my eggs are cage free
my meat is grass fed organic
i rarely eat after seven, when I do
it’s always light
even eased up off of the brews
one life to live, one life to lose
the life that’s long
is the life that's lived with rules
“see a doc man, ease up off the liquor and food
on the real cuz, you way too important to lose”
when u were here cuz i didn’t say it
now i live with those words in the back of my mind replaying, the unsaid
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
it's okay
it’s okay
by hardCore
it's okay
to not want to
knowing you need to
to not feel beautiful or wanted
it’s okay
to be needy
adult toddler, stumbling
wishing someone would just pick you up
and hold your hand
it’s okay to feel alone
maybe you are
maybe right now, you need to be
you have your permission to be angry
@ him/her/me/us/them
to kick scream and throw things
breaking the silence
shattering your frustrations
it’s okay
to cry
so pour out your eyes
like buckets beneath a leaky ceiling
after a rain storm
and don't worry about who gets wet
it’s okay
go ahead
shun the sun
stare at your incoming calls without answering
or returning them
take a second to catch your breath
even if it takes an hour
or a year
and it’s okay
if people don’t understand
sometimes your soul speaks a different language
and you barely feel as if you understand yourself
it’s okay
to not be forgiving at first
to hold grudges until your arms tire
it’s okay to be wrong
weak
stubborn
a person you don’t like
a failure
it’s okay to be human
which makes it perfectly okay
to not be okay
so be what you can
because no matter what you allow yourself to be
it’s okay
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